Journal entry Nov 18, 2022

“I can’t change the world but I can change the world in me.” – Bono

Oh, I believe in You Jesus! But I am trying still to learn that more important and profound than my belief in You is that You believe in me! I am trying to learn and abide and remain in His love and that He wants me to be like Him. But, do I really want to be like Him? Do I really want to be like Jesus? Holiness and righteousness just don’t sound fun and exciting – I wonder why? If they don’t sound exciting does that mean I don’t want to be like You Jesus? Does that mean I don’t think You are fun and exciting – someone I really want to be with? So many misconceptions, so many deceptions from the world, the flesh and the devil. Movement away from self consciousness is the essence of the journey into holiness where we learn to be wholly Yours Lord! Learning to deny self is the way forward to freedom and abundance. Oh how the hidden life seems sometimes hidden from me – Lord bring the fire, bring the light into my hidden life even in the midst of this – here I am again in this sin – inform and empower me – change the world within me – abide in me that the world around me may see the joy within me and the holiness that can only change the world.